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Its so hard to accept that one day,, I'll receive a call informing me that my friend is now dead..I was just laughing and taking it as a joke..They may say I'm in my denial stage..NO!! That was my answer,, its just that I don't believe in them..
But as minute passes by..I know we are in a serious mode that time. My cousin is crying in front of me and I'm just laughing,,saying "You must be joking!..His not dead..No!!..Its not true"..until I can feel the tears on my face..Whatever I do..All of them tells me one thing that day...My X boyfriend is dead. He is not just an X boyfriend to, even his my first boyfriend. He is not just like that. He is a friend who I can consider I can lean on,,Who will always be there through my Ups and Down..Who is willing to sacrifice for a Friend like me. And most special Who is someone that would leave me..='(